"It's not fine, but--" He shakes his head. "I shouldn't have pressed you about it, and I am sorry. I am --well as I might be, I suppose." Which is not very well, but --why is it so easy to talk to Laertes, who wasn't even there, and yet he cannot say a single thing to Grantaire? It's maddening.

"I did not realize how much of an effect ...Paris had on me." He gestures, ineffectually, but meaning to encompass 'the barricades and the last week or so in Paris' in that gesture as a whole. "You, I suppose, if I remember rightly, missed most of it."